Merry Christmas 2008

Hey harlow!
Merry Christmas to all!!
May this christmas season bring u loads of happiness, laughter & joy! :)

Take care!

God bless! :)

Christmas is comin!

Hmm..
It's been sometime since I last blogged..
Lazy.. tired.. not sure what to blog.. simply.. don't feel like blogging.. my heart just isn't there..

My peak is coming.. 2 - 3 more weeks to Jan 2009..
I'm definitely not looking forward to it (esp the OT)..
It will come, slowly but surely...

But looking on the bright side.. the entire of next week is my leave..!! (grins)
wahahaha. Happy happy!

Past few weeks I think I played too much.. :(
I'm guilty of it.. Abit neglect the WOG.. noOooOooo..
And I spent alot past few days.. ALOT..
I think I'm caught up in the Christmas Festive Season already.. At this rate, I'm going broke very soon..

It's Christmas Time!! *excited*
How I wish there's SNOW in Singapore.. white snow.. :)
(dreams).. heh...

God bless all yea..

Working is..

Hmmm.. Nowadays blogging less & less.. Maybe cos reached home later & later.. Lesser time to blog..

This week was a very rush week.. Practically everyday I reached home near midnight or after midnight.. I feel it's not good.. Cos I don't get to really read the Bible.. or reflect upon myself.. However.. I find the sense of being busy quite satisfying.. The working life may be like this.. Work from morning ing to evening/night.. If have time, then go out with friends to chat chat, relax and chill.. If no time, it'll be go home, slp (or maybe work), then leave for work next morning.. For me, it's very important to maintain friendship.. Not those surfaced kind. Anyone can also maintain a surfaced-level friendship. I prefer and cherished a more closed & tight-knitted friendship.. in which we are more than just friends.. Those kinds that will remain even after years.. But.. where to find time to meet up.. The working life is just so.. full of uncertainty.. I can never predict what time I can leave work.. Just only estimate and pray that I don't have to stay late on days that I need to go out.. Hee.

But so far, God is good.. Though it's been a hectic week, but I feel quite satisfied.. and managed to scrape through the week! Thank God! :)

Hee, later is service! :) Yay!
Hope to see all my sis & bro..

God bless and have a great weekend!

Trip back to NTU-SBS

Today our YG unit made a trip back to Ntu-SBS to visit our dear sisters & brothers who are studying hard for their exams.. I can't believe I'm one of those who are studying there just only in April this year, yet this time round I went back there to bless them with food and to catch up with them abit.. The feeling is very very different.. But it's quite heartening to see quite alot of new faces in the room.. :) God is so great!

I was very thankful that I managed to go down.. It has been really very long since I last chatted with the NYC people.. I managed to chat with the people I'm more familiar with :) *happy happy* Though I'm not sure if I'm delaying their studies.. but well... we'll catch up more in future! Haha. Definitely! U guys must jia you jia you in your papers! Left 1 week + to chiong and it'll be over!

Today it wasn't just a trip back to NTU.. It was a very heart-felt day for me.. Me, MM & Rach finally got together, sat down somewhere near Boon Lay MRT and chatted for sometime before going home.. This kind of experience and get-together has been seldom.. I'm not too sure when was the last time we 3 get to meet and chat.. but today, I'm so very thankful that God brought us together.. The feeling was.. indescribable.. I really wished and hoped that there'd more of such get-togethers in future..

I'm really so very thankful to have all these sisters & brothers around me.. to know of them is such a total blessing and great honour.. Every single person matters to me.. :)

God is good.. and real!
God bless!

Manmi's Birthday Celebration

15th nov is MM's birthday! My dear shepherd's birthday.. :)
Hope she enjoyed the birthday celebration.. haha. Any comments abt overall celebration? =X
Much thanks to everyone who's involved in the preparation for this birthday celebration, esp Darren.. Thanks! The games was very well-done! :)

Many thanks to Jan too.. for over-seeing the entire celebration.. If not for u, it wouldn't be that smooth.. haha. Thanks! And woahh. Yesterday alot of pple turn up from YG for this celebration.. Hehe. I guess MM must be very happy.. Haha.

Shall blog again soon!
May God bless all sisters & brothers who are studying hard for their exams..
May God be with them till the end of their papers..

Jia you! Ganbatte!

Finally Friday..

Gah. Recently days seemed to fly by.. I didn't had chance to blog a thing..
Finally.. It's friday.. finally.. My heart longs for this day since mon.. and it's finally here!

The happiness is short-lived though. Whenever I think of my working future, a cloud hangs over my head. I'm not sure if this is what is planned by God for me.. but definitely, right now, I'd think this isn't a very ideal decision from God.. I feel like grumbling & simply just lament why all this has to happen.. Seriously, since last tue, I've been mourning over my future.. My future now seems so uncertain.. Why ah.. whyy???!!!! U can't leave me alone. . .

Right now I just wish to be around my frens.. Although I like to be alone at times, I prefer to be around pple who are believers.. Somehow, believers among believers can click, even though they might have just known each other. This is so amazing.. To me, as long as the other party is also a believer, somehow I find it very easy to communicate and chat with him/her.. God really brings the family of Christ together.. :)

It's very late now. Tomorrow I'll be in office.. and for the next 2 weeks too.. The office now to me is so foreign.. All along since I started work (abt 4.5mths), I've been in client's place.. The client's place is like my "2nd home".. And after 2 weeks, I'll be going back to the same client again. Yes. Till next year Feb/Mar.. My whole life is stuck with the client.. Good or bad, we'll know when the time comes.. Haiz. Should I be sad or thankful.. I also not sure..

Am I worrying too much? It's better to think than not to think right.. at least prepare my heart for what might come in future.. haiz. I'm so looking forward to sat's svc.. I need to calm my heart & to fully embrace God in me..

Pray friday will be an easy day for all my sis & bro..
God bless..

Madagascar!

Magadascar: Escape to Africa!!

It has been sometime since I last watched a movie.. Today I went to watch this movie with Jyn :) It was supposed to be a 'G2 get-together movie'.. but somehow it ended up with just the 2 of us.. Haha. Anyway, it was a comical movie! And quite a touching movie too.. when Alex (the lion), his dad & mum finally reunioned after years of separation.. yea. Overall, I'd rate it an 8/10 :)

And thank God for the time spent today! Haha. Thanks for this sister! =) It was a very well-spent time.. hehe. Sorry to Bier, for I ended up in his house rather late.. He invited the G2s to his house to have lunch.. hehe. But I only reached ard 4.30pm.. =x The food was nice, yep yep! :)

But some G2s had already left when I finally reached.. I saw some of them at the void deck of his house =x Gah. But overall, it was a nice outing :) Thanks Bier for inviting us to his house, and Adele for sending me home! :) TQ!

Thank you God for everything :)

God bless!

God is Almighty

Today there was a prayer meet for believers who need healing.. healing in physical pains and illnesses etc.. Pastor Peter from Hope Brisbane came over to give us a sermon on healing.. It was a very short sermon.. and lots of praying for our fellow sisters & brothers who need healing.. healing in any aspects.. backache pain.. knee pain.. shoulder pain.. eyesight blurness.. chronic backache, gastric pain, headache, skin problems etc etc.. It's so amazing when God produces miracles, curing pple of their pains, diseases & illnesses (though some cant be seen immediately).. Some of the sis & bros infact gave testimony of how the pain was before & after praying.. After praying, the pain was GONE! Yea, Praise the Lord! God is great!

After the prayer meet, it was our weekly service! Ahh.. I so loved to be worshipping God.. Sat is my most favourite & looking-forward day of the week.. It's the only time when I can feel myself being fully embraced in God.. and the only time when I'll think of nothing besides God.. :)

Thank you God for everything :)
Really hope that you'll protect, heal and guide all my sis & bro in whatever that they are doing, whatever they may be facing, and whatever that is on their mind... Pls keep your hold on them tightly and firmly.. Thank you God!

Amen!

Back in SBS

Yay, TGIF!! I'm so looking forward to Friday.. Haha!

Today me, Sherwyn & Hong Yao went back to Ntu to visit the Nyc people.. Hehe.. Thanks for coming down with me! It was my 2nd time back to Ntu since the end of my exams in April.. went back once for convocation.. hahaha. Yea. I kind of miss Ntu.. But it's simply too far from Raffles.. =/ rather inconvenient..

Anyway, today I met a few sisters & brothers who were mugging in SBS! Sihui, Huimin, Jee Kai, Eng Hao, Eng Seng, Reuben, Zachery, Brenda and of cos, Reuben! Haha.. There are somemore.. but not very close to them.. yet. =/ Haha, yea.. To say the truth, I'm quite thankful that I don't have to open up textbook, read lecture notes, draw mindmaps.. and study, and memorise.. It's just a total different feeling to be working, when you see others who are studying very hard and trying to squeeze everything in their mind.. *phew* I'm so thankful.. I can't imagine myself studying.. The days of studying is really a killer.. Haha.

And many thanks to Reuben for driving us home.. Haha.. It was my 1st time sitting in yr car! Sorry I slammed your car door.. hahaha. I didn't know it's that forceful =x hahaha. But it was fun chatting with u all! :)

Yay! I'm feeling so happy now.. Haha.. yeaa :)
Looking forward to Sat & Sun =D

God bless all!
Good night! :)

God bless

Today I met up with 1 of my sister.. Infact we weren't very close.. we met each other just abt 1 mth ago. But there's 1 thing that I clearly acknowledged: Time does not determine how close you will be with another person. It depends on many factors such as whether the 2 can click, whether effort is put in to want to know the other person etc etc.. To have many friends is easy, but to maintain a friendship, to know more abt that person and to share with that person is not easy..

I'm brought back to the realization that there are always people who are worst off than me. Not to say that anyone is worst off than me, but just that there'll always be pple who are facing more problems, more trials & tests, encounter more difficulties in their lives etc. I feel so refreshed and brought back to reality by this sister.. Thank you.. :)

May God bless this sister of mine and help & guide her in all ways possible.. :)
May God bless all too :)

Trust in the Lord

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight". - Proverbs 3:5-6


God bless :)
Amen.

Chill Out

Today's service was great! (as usual) =p
And many thanks to Jyn for coming! Almost thought she wouldn't be able to make it cos she has been working in office since morning.. But she rushed & made it.. Thanks so much! :)

Everything went well.. YAY! We had our dinner at cineleisure food court, and yummy!! The pasta stall really serves quality food.. Cineleisure is definitely better than Meridian.. :P We chatted alot before, during and after dinner.. Our YG unit really can chat alot :) YAY-ness.. It just makes everyone feel so homely.. and at ease :)

After dinner, some of us proceed to Mount Emily to chill-out.. The girls ordered non-alcoholic drinks whereas some of the guys ordered beer.. There, we played a game hosted by David.. Some true/false game.. Yay, I escaped! Haha.. I can't lie la! The drinks there were nice!! But the place I find it quite inaccessible.. Otherwise, it's a very nice place to chill-out & relax..

Overall, I had a very enjoyable time!
Truly & totally overjoyed..

Thanks to all sisters & brothers :)

God bless!

Smiles :)

Haha oh my.. today's Halloween? I've no idea.. Oh my..

Well, hey haha. Today's work started off very stressful.. There's this particular client who likes to be sarcastic and think she's always right.. Of course she'll know more than me, cos that's what her job is isn't it.. But luckily, she quietened down when she kind of stumbled over my questions.. But eventually, everything was cleared (or I hope so).. Hehe..

Today is our timesheet day.. Ya, and we were supposed to gather at office @ 7pm and proceed to Popeye's Chicken near Singapore Flyer to have our dinner.. but due to the submission of the new timesheet, I took a whole 2hrs to settle & submit it.. (I didn't really know how to use this new timesheet.. ) And in the end.. we only had our dinner abt 9.30pm.. SORRY to those who waited very long & almost fainted because of hunger.. Pai sei.. =/

But everything was very nice over at Popeye! We had a very cool catch-up with my batch of colleagues :) I totally enjoyed chatting with them & knowing more about their work & ya, whether they OT alot or not.. haha.. And I realized our this batch are working-freaks!! They like to go back office & do work.. =/ Gah. But still, as long as everyone makes the effort to meet up for gatherings & dinners, it'll be sufficient :) Thanks to everyone who turned up.. There'll be more outings in future, definitely! :)

I feel really very blessed everyday..
And yay, tmr is service!
I'm so looking forward to each day.. :)

God bless all and have a good rest!

Yay, G2 rox! =p

Step by Step, Little by Little

Today I had a really long day.. Thank God for sustaining me throughout..

My start at work was different today.. Received an unexpected call from 1 of my sister :) And she said a short prayer for me.. really appreciate it.. :) Infact, today's work I'd expected it to be quite cham.. cos my work scope involved alot of communication with clients.. to clarify issues (this & that).. and most pple dislike pple to question and ask lots of things.. but I need to do my job still.. In this line, you get to see all sorts of people.. =/

But thank God, things went by still ok.. at least I survived.. I braved up my courage to ask the client questions.. and believe me, I was really so scared & fearful of the client.. super super scared.. (I kept on praying that everything will go well..) The unfortunate thing is that I still need to find the client again tomorrow.. for she need time to get back to me.. will I be able to survive tmr? Really hope tmr everything will go smoothly & that I'll be able to off work before 7pm.. cos we're having G2 dinner!! (yay! dinner with my colleagues!) :) I'm so looking forward to each new day.. for each new day brings new hopes and new spirit.. :)

God bless all!
It's finally friday tmr!
(and yupp, service on sat! yay! YAY-ness is back!!)

And ohh, did I mention I saw Sherywn on my way home today? Haha. It was so unexpected!! The uncommon can become common, and the impossible be possible :)

Sing To The Dawn

I still remember I read this literature book by Minfong Ho "Sing to the Dawn" in my sec sch days.. and I was captivated by the book.. especially the story plot.. It had meaning.. it illustrated how women in the past were belittled and to get an education is tough.. It also showed the love between Dawan (the girl) & her brother Kai.. It was a heart-rendering story so far as I remembered.. (certain areas of the story are hazy.. I think I read this book in sec 1.. so it's like.. 9+ yrs ago?.. gah. Have to admit I'm old.. Time really flies!!)

I was rather surprised that the story became a movie.. Though I never expected it to be screened, but I'm more than happy that it is! Anybody wanna watch it too? Haha. Jio jio!! =p

It'll be screened on 30th Oct!! Haha.

YAY!!

Yay! Today I'm very happy.. actually recently I'm quite happy.. Even if I'm down, it'll also be gone almost immediately.. I wanna maintain this kind of personality in me! *prays*

Today I had my training! Yay! How long I have wished for training.. Last time when I just entered the company, there were so many days of training that I'm so sick of it.. But now when I'm always out at client's place, I'm just so looking forward to training days.. totally can relax and ahh, shiok.. no need to worry about anything.. :) too bad it's only a 1 day training.. the next training is in nov.. 2 weeks away.. gah.

Anyway, I'm so looking forward to this fri & sat! Fri as I'm meeting my colleagues for dinner! (yay!) Sat cos there's service! (yay yay!) I realized I get excited over simple things.. :p Weird, but ya, I'm excited! And also saturday 1 of my colleagues will be joining me for svc! (yay yay! haha)

YAY-ness!!

May this Yay-ness last!!
God bless all! =)

YG's Mini Women Ministry

Today.. was Deepavali.. so it was a Public Holiday! *grins*

Our YG unit had our very first mini "Women Ministry" at Flor's house today! (The man had Men Ministry at 9am.. aha). Much thanks to Flor & her family members for being so welcoming! :)

We had some chit-chat, and some deeper sharing among us.. Personally for me, it was a very enriching gathering.. I learnt much more about my sisters and their walk with God thus far.. Everyone is very different, and very unique.. with each having their own personal experiences to share.. I'm just so thankful to be part of God's family and part of this YG.. There's really alot of room for growth in me.. i.e. spirituality, mentality, faith etc.. And I just realized that my love language has changed.. previously my love language was 'affirmation/gifts' like cards, letters etc.. but now, after giving it some serious thought, I felt that my love language at present is more of 'touch'. Last time 'touch' was a definite NO-NO, as in I totally will go 'eww' at the thought of 'touch'... But nowadays, I find myself feeling much more comfortable & at ease with 'touch'.. and I kind of like it.. it makes me feel I'm closer to that person instead..

God really can change people!

O ya! Today was kind of crazy too.. After we all left Flor's house to go home, the first thing I did when I reached home was to on the MSN.. and guess what, the next moment I find myself in Xin Ying's house.. Haha. Today Chi was spayed.. and I really feel for Chi.. for the pain & uncomfortableness that she's feeling after the operation.. And I really got a sudden urge to see Chi.. And I was telling Xin Ying over MSN how I wished to see Chi.. haha. So ya, I landed up in her house within 30min :) We lived quite near from each other.. hehe. Chi wasn't that weak as what I had expected.. Haha. But she's very adorable.. First time I allowed a cat to get so close to me without me screaming or running all over the place.. (I'm very scared of furry animals..)

But really thanks Xin Ying for supporting my crazy idea of going over to see Chi at such a weird timing.. Haha. Thanks!

Hope Membership & Spiritual Gifts

Yay, yesterday went for Hope Membership class.. (thanks for all the sistas & brothers who came along to the class too) :)
The class ended much earlier than I expected.. Ya, it was Pastor Jeff :P (haha)
It reaffirmed my commitment to live my life with God in the center, and to put Him always in first priority.. above all other things..

This morning I went to search for the Spiritual Giftings worksheets given by Xingni during a workshop sometime ago.. I didn't went for that class due to my company's Make a Difference Day (MADD).. and oh my, I didn't do that worksheet!! =/ Corinna gave it to me but I didn't do it.. so I did it this morning.. I finally knew my Spiritual Giftings.. The top 3 are Faith, Hospitality and Music.. followed by Writing.. Infact these 4 Spiritual Gifts have very close scores.. :) Now that I finally knew my Spiritual Givings... I'll seek to do well in them and bless others with what I can give and provide.. :)

God bless!

PS: It's Deepavali today! (Public Holiday!!)
I'm so loving it =)

Blessed. Thanksgiving..

Thank you..
I want to start off this blog by giving thanks to God.. for everything that has occurred to me thus far since coming to know of Jesus and accepting Him into my life.. Thank you so so much..

There's so many things that I want to thank God for..
1) Knowing of God's family - It's the best gift that could have happened to me.. (inclusive of knowing of God & accepting Him into my life)
2) Changing me from who I am in the past
3) Securing a stable job - With news of recession & so many uncertainty in the economy, everyone should be thankful if they have a job..
4) Able to serve in Usher Ministry - It's just like my 3rd family.. (1st is real family, 2nd is my Young Graduates (YG) unit, 3rd is Usher Ministry hehe)
5) R/S with my family - It's much much better now than few years back.. Thank God
6) Able to cope & handle issues with more ease - the WOG guides me and helps me to make sense of the things that I'm facing.. and that everything happens for a reason.. It's all in God's plan & all his plans are perfect & flawless..
7) Doing the impossible - With God, nothing is impossible..

There's so much much more things that I want to thank God for.. It's all too good to be true.. Kind of unbelievable.. But God really is GOOD! Today our team is ushering, and yay, there's 4 new ushers (Angeline, Huiying, Qiu Lian, Evangeline & Wendy --> Thks Suquan for pointing out! haha)!! WELCOME TO USHER TEAM 1!!! :) hehe. I'm so love to be ushering.. I'm so glad that my CL (Jan) registered me for Ushering Ministry! haha. In the beginning, I was abit uncertain if I'm ready to serve God in the ministry, and worry of the commitment.. Thank God I didn't back out.. Once in the ushering ministry, I've never looked back.. It's all forward looking & into the future.. Thanks to Joella (Floor Manager) & Andrea (Team Ldr) and all the other ushers.. U've all become like bright sparks in my life.. and inspired me to serve other people with your smiles & cheerfulness.. although we all come from different groups (poly, DI, uni and YG..) I seriously want to do the same for the other sis & bro in our church.. to bring smiles to their faces whenever they come for service..

Thank you all sis & bro..
Thank you God :)

Looking forward to more times of gatherings & sharing, and more time with God..
Amen.

The 'Changed' Dilemma

It's weird.. it's really very weird..
Recently, I feel I'm changing..
I feel like a total new person..
It's not by my own will, but I have to..
I have no choice..

I'm confused, but yet at the same time, thankful.
I'm having mixed feelings..

Even right now I'm feeling so not myself..
I don't really know what I'm typing infact..
My mind is in a total mess..

Time will explain..
Hopefully..
To me..

I want to Grow..

Sometimes I can't understand myself..
I'm so contradictory.. Want and don't want.. Though I myself know that I ought and should do certain things, yet I don't do them.. I allow things to slide pass me easily.. I always let go of opportunities.. I need to grow.. grow in many areas.. I need you, God.. I need someone to unravel the things that's impeding my growth.. help me to make sense of the current situation..

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight" - Proverbs 3:5-6 That's exactly what I'm going to do now.. to trust in you God... please show me the light...

God bless.

Thank u

Just back from work..
The one thing that I'm surprised abt my work is that if there's a need for OT, the entire unit will all stay back together.. They call it team spirit.. I think many other companies do that too.. And all along I thought that OT is an individial's decision.. I'm so wrong.. haha..

Now is the pseudo peak season, or the 'warming-up' stage to prepare for the real peak period that is to come in next year jan - mar 09.. This week our unit has already decided which are the days we are going to OT.. Today (mon), tuesday & thursday.. Efficient? Haha.. There's more OT days to come.. gah. But so far I'm still loving my job.. Thank God :)

I'm so looking forward to saturday's service.. haha. How i wish everyday is saturday.. (wishful thinking..) haha.

Have a blessed week ahead :)

Water Baptism

Yeaaaa!
The day has arrived to proclaim my faith in God, to obey him and to commit to him in all my ways.. Yeshhh! It's our Hope Water Baptism day (19th Oct 2008) @ YWCA Fort Canning Lounge :)

It's my first time there.. I missed the first Water Baptism due to the unsettledness of my heart and my mind wasn't firm.. Compared to this time, I'm so much more assured that I need God, and I want to live in his ways.. to obey and to commit myself to him.. It was a total refreshing experience..

It has been 6mths since I accepted Christ into my life.. Throughout this 6mths, there's been many ups & downs.. Life is and never will be easy, but with God's power & strength, even the impossible will become possible.. This decision to be baptized did not come easy.. I did not want to be baptized just for the sake of it.. There's 2 things that David (1 of our ldrs) prophesized for me during my baptism: (1) To clearly understand my intention to be baptized (2) To grow in capacity in certain aspects (ie. serving/to show love for others etc)

I myself also want to be sure that there's meaning behind the baptism.. Besides fulfilling The Great Commission in Matthew 28:19, I also want to be a step closer to God, to move on and progress from where I am now.. I want to serve him and change to be more like him..

I agree that sometimes when I'm faced with setbacks or become discouraged, I tend to give up easily.. This not only pull me away from God, it also makes me sink deeper and deeper into my own dark world.. It will prevent me from moving ahead, to do great things for people and for God, prevent me from blessing people and to serve others etc etc.. Simply, it pushes me further and further away from God.. I do not want to be pulled away from God.. neither do I want to be stuck at a certain level.. I want to grow, to do things that exceeds what I'm doing currently but yet still within my ability.. I want to surpass myself to do things for God..

Thanks to all who came down to support & encourage me to accept this leap of faith in God.. I totally appreciated it alot.. Totally feel so blessed.. :)

A brother in my CG, Lenny also proclaimed his faith today to God.. :) Hehe.. Cheers! Today I think there was a total of 79 people who took up the decision to commit to God.. Praise the Lord! :) May there be more and more people who trust in the Lord and to commit their lives to him in time to come..

Here comes my favorite praise!!! "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight" - Proverbs 3:5-6 Indeed, his plans are always perfect and he knows what is best for us.. :)

Here's some of the photos taken during the water baptism :)

I love God

Ever since becoming a Christian, my r/s with corinna has been improving.. maybe slowly but definitely, we are getting closer despite seeing her like only once per week.. she's staying in Hall, so effectively I only get to see her from fri-sun when she finally comes home.. 'see' as in really seeing, but not chatting.. to say the truth, we rarely chat.. most of the time I'll be disturbing her.. haha. she's such a study freak!! (oops)

I admit that time & distance doesn't really determine how affectionate or close you'll be to someone.. it's not proportionate.. some people whom I hang ard everyday or most of the time, I don't feel close to them at all.. on the other hand, those whom I rarely keep in touch (or hardly see), I'm infact closer to them.. Why...? why...

Sometimes I long for someone whom I can just pour out my feelings, someone whom I can relate to, someone whom I don't have to worry about telling everything.. but... either that person haven't appear in my life.. or it might be someone whom I already know but I have yet to realize that that's the person.. Right now my only channel is God.. My woes, problems, sadness.. essentially everything, I will look to him first.. It's easier to talk to him than to the people around me.. the best time is during Praise & Worship, where I really praise him, and also pray to him..
If not for him.. my life will be in a chaos.. definitely, and really.

I'm so looking forward to service later.. U should know why.. :)

Conplicated

The complexity of human relationships..
I'm now in a confused state of mind.. not really confused but just don't know how & what to do.. Just simply, I'm at a loss.. Have been trying to grapple with this issue & hopefully to find an explanation & solution to it, but it just didn't work out.. How.. how... I can't possibly keep running away & ignore the problem, pretending that it is non-existence.. but right now.. yet I'm still treating as if everything is going well & fine.. I hate to pretend.. I want to be myself.. Maybe it's just me? Maybe it's just me who felt this way? I've no idea.. What am I supposed to do...?

With a wandering mind, I still give myself to God.. For me, I always feel God during Praise & Worship time.. Only during P&W time, I'm able to pour out all my feelings and praise Him.. when I'm totally engrossed in the songs.. It's just like a channel to express my feelings.. I don't like to tell my problems to people, yet I know I should.. It's just this inner self-esteem that is prohibiting me from sharing with people.. I can be really quiet at times, yet I can be really noisy.. When I'm quiet, it usually means I'm thinking about certain issues & need some soliditary & to be alone.. If I'm noisy, it usually means I'm in my normal self.. and I'm comfortable to whoever I'm with at that time.. It's not hard to experience the 2 sides of me easily..

But today's ushering in the Prayer Meet @ FCBC Touch Centre, I just felt so much for God.. The song 'How can I keep from singing' was the 1st song that led me to come to know God & which led me to become a Christian & to join this family.. My knees felt so weak when the song was about to be sung.. It brought back all the memories when I was still fresh & new to Hope.. (about 6mths ago).. Those were the times...

Another song sung during the Prayer Meet "Hosanna" totally carried me away.. I was singing and praising, and was totally engrossed in the song.. God simply felt so real in my life... He's the only one whom I look to when I'm down, feeling alone or simply as and when I need him..

My mind now is very tired..

Need a soliditary time now..

Hectic and rush, yet pleasing

YEAAAAA!!

YEAAAAA!!

YEAAAAA!!

I'm over-excited yeapp! Hehe..

Just within this past few days, many things occurred.. the recent trip to bintan with my unit colleagues was a super super fun, enjoyable & fantastic get-together.. I totally enjoyed myself there.. And I get to know my colleagues more and better! The feeling is so great.. if there wasn't this bintan trip, I doubt today I'll be able to name all the colleagues in my unit.. but now I can!!! *grins* haha, what a fantastic trip.. *cool!!*

Right now my peak period just started.. Things at work will get really busy.. Not for me only, but also for some of my colleagues as well.. It all depends on the magnitude of the client and the extent of work that is to be done.. Pray really hard that everything will go smoothly..

And this friday is Hope church Corporate Prayer Meet! I'm so looking forward to it!! Saturday is our service!! (yea!! Hopefully my friend will come along with me!!) And sunday is the Water Baptism day! (still praying over this heh)

Too many things has occurred and new events are going to occur over the next couple of days.. Need some time to settle down and to really think about everything.. my work, my church, my CG, my friends, my colleagues, my family, my life etc..

May God bless all his children..
Thanks. :)

Thoughts: Away from home

Just only, I was glancing through facebook.. and being kaypoh, I went to view & read some of my friends' profiles.. And something struck me.. If one had to leave his/her hometown just to work in other foreign country for a better prospect (and this means being away from family & friends in hometown etc), I wonder how's the feeling like..

Definitely if one were to have a choice, I guess most people wouldn't choose to leave their hometown to go to some other foreign country to stay for a period of time (in a sense, years). But what if one had no choice but to leave their hometown for a better work prospect in some other countries... Now in my heart, I realized that I'm so fortunate, that I'm living in Sg and the work prospect is considered relatively good in general.. But what about those people who are left with no choice but to be separated from their family and friends in their hometown, to work and live and fend for themselves, to be independent, living & working in a foreign country..?

Seriously, I'm sure whoever it is, even the coldest or most unfeeling person on earth, when required to leave his/her close family & people around him to live in a foreign country.. somehow or another, he/she will feel sad and dread the day.. The feeling of loneliness, the feeling of separation and the need for support & encouragement from friends might not kick in straight away.. but the feeling might just accumulate bit by bit, and sooner than you know, the wish, the hope and the yearning to go back to hometown just settle down and it'll become so strong that it becomes a 'must' to go home (or the heart and mind won't be able to settle down and be at ease).. I never experienced this before, so everything mentioned are simply based on my impression..

But I'm very concerned about this.. for I've friends whom I think are in this predicament.. Though they didn't really say it out verbally, but some things simply required no words for it to be understood.. Just by pure observation, everything will be revealed.. I can understand that being in a foreign land, one will need utmost support from friends or people who also came from their hometown, to show and provide encouragement, to spur one another to not give up halfway.. Definitely, if it's possible for locals in the foreign land to show support and to help them too, I'd say it'd be even better.. The more support, the more encouragement and concern shown to them, the greater will be their perseverance level to continue on in the foreign land to accomplish whatever aim that has been set before coming over.. Nobody likes to give up halfway..

This topic came across to me as I really feel like helping (or at least show some support) to my friends if they really are feeling this way, or having this predicament.. But I don't know how to go about it.. This I feel might be quite a sensitive topic.. for it'll show the vulnerability of the individual (but in the 1st place, who ain't vulnerable.. all humans are vulnerable.. I'm also very vulnerable to things around me..)

But if really I had to face this predicament, the 1st thing that will come to my mind is fear. Fear of everything.. Fear of being alone, fear of new environment, fear of a different working style, fear of losing valuables (such as passport), fear of making new friends etc etc..The thought of it simply gives me goosebumps..

Life is just so complicated.. and complex..
May God provide strength and be with you at all times..
Do seek him more..

God bless.

Unit trip to Bintan!

B-I-N-T-A-N!
yeaaaa, finally back from Bintan (10-12th Oct 2008; our 3days/2nights co. unit trip) :D

My only comment of this unit trip was fun, fun and yepp, fun! Many thanks to the organizers of the activities there (Pam & Weimin), thanks! It was a very successful & enjoyable trip :)

Although it was a very short trip, I loved there! I like the hotel room (ok, ignore the baby snake who was in our room), the bed (it was so soft & comfortable!), the beach (the sand is so smooth, soft & fine.. s-h-i-o-k!!), the sea (woahhhh, glittering sea under the sun.. superbly pretty & beautiful..), and of cos, the people from our unit!!!

I'm so thankful for this trip.. I find it a very good way to interact & mix around with all the people from our unit.. Away from workplace, putting aside work and simply enjoy the nature, the beautiful sea, and interacting with colleagues.. it's just so wonderful, so relaxing and yep, shiok... :) It's simply too good to be true..

There's so much things that I want to type.. I really really enjoyed myself all this while in Bintan.. But words can't really express well everything.. Everything single moment of the happy times spent together is captured in my heart, in my memories and in my mind.. I find myself really fortunate to be in this unit... and yepp, during this trip, I came to know of more believers in our unit too!! (I'm so so happy and excited abt it!) :)

Thank you, God for everything that has happened in my life so far, and also for whatever plans that you have in mind for my future.. Looking forward to more QT with you, and to seek you more..

God bless all! :)

PS: A glimpse of our unit :P

The hunks!

and the ladies!! =D

Bintan Rush

*vrooooooooooooom*
Rushing to pack bag to leave for Bintan tmr morning..

Hope everything will go well!

Back on sun :)

God bless.

Stoning

Today's cg, I'm 95% in a stoning mode... I'm listening.. and thinking.. but just don't feel like talking.. My mind was a total blank, like times when u were suddenly awoken by a phone call or when u just wake up from a very long sleep..

Might be due to my melancholic nature. I also don't know. Is this one of the trial that God is putting me to..? Testing to see if I'll still remain strong & faithful to him when I don't really feel like it.. Infact I think everyone of us know what we ought to do in times when we are feeling not so positive, feeling down or not so good.. like we should pray more to God, seek more of him etc etc. But like what is mentioned in last sat's sermon "Thoughts is cheap, action is deep".. we can always think of what we can do, what we want to do etc etc, but when it comes to actually doing it, it is so hard..

There are always so many things that I want to do, hope to do, but in the end, they always end up unaccomplished..

The bible says "do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough troubles of its own" - Matthew 6:34

Let's hope so, and ya, I'll pray more.

God bless.
And good nites.

Shopping Madness

For the past 2 days, I seemed to have gone into a spendthrift mode.. Just on mon & tue, I spent a whopping total of $236.60.. (siao right?..) I'm stunned myself too.. Usually I don't like shopping, or rather I don't go shopping. I don't know what has gone into me.. Maybe it's due to this friday's unit trip to bintan so I need to buy some stuff, and it might also be that I'm preparing myself for the peak period which is to come next mon (13 oct) which I knew I won't have the time to go shopping even if I want to.. But then again.. $230 within 2 days!!!! dot.

Let me think what I bought..

1) Clothes ($140)
2) Shoes ($33)
3) Photoframes ($24)
4) Bag ($10)
5) Sunglass ($12)

The rest (abt $20) goes to some little miscellaneous stuff & sweets..

*heart-pain*

Re: welcome new usher event

Due to some MSN email problem.. only now then I can view the photos taken during the "Welcome New Ushers" event held on 28th Sept 2008.. Woah. Kenneth took alot of pictures. Haha. The 1st photo is the entire usher group picture, whereas the 2nd photo is our team 1 members! Kudos to Ushering!

Serenity Time with Nature, and with God

Just now I went to have a jog around my house.. Somehow I just feel I need some quiet time alone.. all cos there's too many distractions in my house..

I can't do without my mp3 while jogging.. and my mp3 is full of P&W songs.. heh :)
To admit the truth, the P&W songs provide me strength to jog.. :)

I truly enjoyed the serenity time with the outside, with the nature.. I never felt that relaxed since I started working.. Every morning I'm like rushing to go to work (cos I like to take my own sweet time to prepare for work).. so end up chiong to work..

I thought abt a few things while jogging cum listening to 'This is our God' mp3. (I set repeat 1 haha, meaning the song will constantly play in the mp3) :) As usual, my mind went back to times during exam period.. It only shows how much I missed that period of time.. And I'm also thinking when I can go back to SBS to visit them during the upcoming exam period.. Another thing that came through my head was my CG.. what I can do to support & encourage them more in their work.. and also how to improve my r/s with some of the sisters & brothers in our unit.. Last thing that came to my head was the water baptism. I prayed and asked God if this is the appropriate time for me to go for it.

I'm thankful that I spent this time alone with nature, and with God.
Hehe.

God bless all.

Saviour King

This song is quite old I think, but somehow this song kept on repeating inside my head when I happened to listen to it on fri on my handphone.. I find it a really nice, and impactful song.. Enjoy :)

Blessed, with thanksgivings

Yay heh heh! Yesterday was my very 1st time ushering! It was superbly fun & I think I'll like this service very much :) Perhaps cos I get to interact people outside our unit.. hehe. Coming to know of more sisters & brothers and to know them more is something which I love to do ever since joining this church.. Thanks wo de xiao mei for bringing me into this family, and some other sisters/brothers too :) It has been a very blessed journey for me ever since joining this family of God! Cool. God loves all his children very much!

And yep!! Our CG celebrated Wei Shang's birthday yesterday @ Cineleisure HK Cafe! The food there is yummy yummy!! (super yummy!) haha. But price also abit *yummy* =/ Anyway, the cake Wei Jian bought from Awfully Chocolate was 'awfully delicious'! hahahaha. Not bad, the chocolate was smooth & quite thick.. hehe. Had a really full dinner yesterday :)

Another thing on my mind is the water baptism.. it's on 19th oct 2008 if i didn't remember wrongly. Not too sure if I've set my heart on it and if should I go this time round (I didn't go for the last water baptism abt 3 months ago.. For my heart wasn't settled yet at that time).. Now whether has it settled I'll think about it for the next few days.. I don't want to be baptized just for the sake of baptizing or if there isn't purpose for doing so.. To me, it's a serious issue and I want to consider it carefully first..

Anyway, thanks to all sisters & brothers who've made an impact on my life! I really enjoyed all your presence and you'll forever be in my heart :) Hehe..

God bless ya!

Zouk night

Yesterday night was our company's Welcome Party for the new recruits..
It was at Zouk.. The whole area was entirely flooded! with people of cos.. Other out-goers could not enter Zouk till our party is over.. which is like 10.30pm.. When I left with my friends abt 10.20pm, outside were a crowd of night people.. *amazed*

It was my second time there.. Seriously the place doesn't appeal to me.. Wonder why some people like to go there.. But different people different styles & character.. Though it wasn't my kind of lifestyle, but I did enjoy myself.. Most of my colleagues turned up! And they really hypotized to the music there.. :P Cool~ Once in a bluemoon such events might be good.. haha.

Well, I don't drink.. Haha though I was forced to! I took sips haha. The taste is.. erk. But some of my colleagues can really drink.. woah.. and some went into a 'daze'... But I'm sober throughout cos I couldn't drink those tiger beer/vodka/cocktail.. I drank mostly orange juice.. hahaha! Overall it was a nice experience..

Yeppp! Later is service time! (muahahaha) Looking forward to the service later! And yep, some celebration hehe.. Time to prepare and leave the house :)

God bless all~ :)

Rachel's house-warming

Hear something different this time round? Yes!! I changed the list of songs! :)
Hehe.. if want to listen to any other songs, can tell me too :)

Ohh!! Rachel's house-warming was very fun! Had a very enjoyable time there! :) I totally enjoyed the fellowship there and of course, the food! The food I think was catered.. but it was very yummy! One of the most popular dish was Rachel's self-made salad.. Hehe. And I like the blueberry cheese cake.. (not sure if the name is correct.. but it's very delicious!!) Hehe.. And oh ya, her parents were really friendly!! The home was very pretty, really. I like Rachel's room de floor, those wooden kind, and omg.. she has a sliding table on her bed.. So cool.. And the master bedroom.. 1 word: SHIOK!! haha, I was very amazed by the whole concept of the master bedroom.. Simply 'wow'..

And oh ya, this is the beanbag we bought for her!! :)
Cool??? hehe





















Thanks to all sisters & brothers today!! Hehe. Had a really fun time :)

God bless! :)

Sharing of lives

As per title, is it easy for you to share your life with others? Is it easy for you to open up your life to people? The people can be your family members, friends, relatives, colleagues etc etc..

For me, I find it very hard.. not only hard, but also uncomfortable with it.. I'm just not used to telling people about myself.. I find it so awkward to tell others about what's going on in my life, the things that happen to me, around me, and to tell others what I'm thinking and feeling. .It's like a sense of loss of privacy and to show the vulnerable side of humans.. I guess I'm a very insecured person..

But anyway, I want to thank one of my sis for sharing and opening up her life to me just recently. I really admire her for her effort to want to share her life with me.. (I feel that sharing to someone like me is like sharing to a 'stone' at times.. ) It's not that I don't have a heart to feel, but I just don't know what to do or how I should react..

I hope to change really in this aspect.. which I foresee will be an uphill task..
But still, with God's power, anything impossible will become possible..

:)
God bless all.

Usher service

Heh, today Ushers' get-together session was very fun!!
Though we walked all the way from Orchard mrt to Botanical Gardens.. under the hot scorching sun.. it was a good time for fellowship.. heh.

When we finally reached Botanical Gardens, we met some other ushers.. they really made us feel very welcomed and comfortable.. :) overall it was a very fun session.. we played quite afew games.. and interacted with other ushers... interesting.. hahah.

Really looking forward to this new service to God, and hope to bless others & more people during this walk with God :-)

God bless all :)

Insomnia..

It's now 4am.. and yet I'm not in bed.. The aftermath of slping too much yesterday...
Partly is cos of the slp, but it might also that there's many thoughts going on in my mind...

Let me think.. it's been 162 days since I came to know God.. about 5months & 12days.. woah. It's really fast isn't it.. the memories are still fresh in my head.. it's like everything happened just only yesterday.. happy things are always unforgettable..

Today I'm very happy, for I get to see the nyc people! And I get to chat with them.. very very happy.. It's been quite a long time since I last chatted with them.. yea, I missed them.. I only will be able to see them during svc.. and sometimes even service I had no chance to chat with them, for each CG has their own activity after svc..

Just wanna say that I really really love and cherish this family of God.. all the sisters & brothers.. many many thanks to my beloved sister Corinna!! (hehe) Yea, u r my best sister forever! :) Though it seems like I always bully u (hahaha) but u know I don't mean it! Thanks for bringing me to know this family of HOPE! Without your 'invitation' to go to SBS during the exam period, I doubt I'll be what I'm today.. Thank you very much!

God bless all :)
(and yep, I need to slp now.. or tmr ushering event I'll confirm be very restless..)

Good nites!!

Our Purpose..

My friday.. was.. okok, not say fruitful, but I did sleep alot.. really alot.. cos really dunno what to do.. so I just listen to Mp3 and unknowingly, I feel aslp.. Practically, my friday was spent on reading Bible, sleep & playing game.. But I recuperated all my lost sleep since monday :) Praise the Lord.. hehe.. Now I'm wide awake :)

Today I met mm before svc (and rach for a short while).. it wasn't on bible study, but rather just chit-chat cos it's been sometime since we last chatted.. maybe abt 3 weeks ago.. today's session was more on sharing.. and I'm very thankful tt mm shared.. really. I think my character is such that I don't open up easily.. maybe I'm not used to the concept of sharing my life with pple.. it's something which I'm trying to change.. I guess I need more time (and I mean really more).. it's just like changing one's inborn character (and it can be that hard...).. However, the thing with being with God, with this family, is that everyone need to open up and share their lives with one another.. that's how and what God wants us to be.. to share lives.. to understand and know other people.. not just on the surface, but the deep down matters of the heart too..

Really hope to change myself on the aspect of sharing.. and also to show more concern and love to my sisters & brothers.. I feel I'm not exactly like before, like how often I'm so enthusiastic in blessing other people, how enthusiastic in knowing people and to know the WOG.. It's not totally that I'm not doing at all, but the spirit isn't really there.. hence not much effort put in to bless, know & read the WOG.. It's very true that it's super easy to backslide, day by day, little by little, soon u'll find yourself further & further away from God.. Right now, my spirit is still with God (himself), and I want to cling to him firmly.. I really look forward to every sat's svc.. esp. the Praise & Worship part.. cos it always pulls me closer to God... it makes me feel how God is so impt to me, how real He is and how much I needed him to be in my life...

May God be a blessing to everyone, and everyone be a blessing to every others..
God lives in us, and we in Him...

Friday Yippie!!

Muahahha! Guess why I'm not in bed yet!! It's 2am in the morning!! 2hrs past my normal bedtime.. cos.. TMR IS MY LEAVE!! :) haha. *shiok shiok* Dun need wake up early and slogged to pull myself up from bed.. weeeee *happy*

I realized that I'm super productive in work when I'm alone with nobody around me.. Today I'm all alone in client's place, and I finished all the work that I thought I'd only complete on next mon/tue.. The sense of satisfaction is... woooots! amazing!! U know why I managed to finish? Cos I stayed back till 8pm to finish haha.. I dun like to leave things lying around, especially since tmr friday I'm gg to take leave.. and the next time I can do the unfinished work is like mon.. (this is even more sian cos of monday blues..) The feeling is so shiok lol! I think anything is possible, just as long as u put in time and effort into it, and focus on completing it..

I also think I'm a workaholic at work.. heh. Once I start work, I can't stop unless people shoo me away.. This line of job is just 'perfect' for me.. not taking into account the super tight deadlines and crazy working hours (OT)...

Nvm, jia yous all!
God will bless everyone of us!

Midnight Thoughts

It's now 1am.. and surprisingly, I'm still wide awake.. (I've work later argh!)

What kept me awake was the blogs.. I've to admit it has been sometime since I last blogged or read others' blogs.. Today somehow, there's this feeling of wanting to read others' blogs.. it's like a means of knowing what's going on in that person's life.. As I read through some of the blogs, it made me ponder over some issues.. I really feel I should count myself lucky, to come to know of God, God's family and all the other little little things that has been going on in my life..

Seriously, if one would to ask me this question "Do you think your life will be like today if u haven't come to know God", I would give a clear answer "No". Ever since coming to know of God, I'm sure definitely there's changes in me, like my character, my behaviour, my mentality etc etc. The changes might be minute & gradual, but I'm very sure God has or rather the Bible has taught me to change for the better. I had never expected myself to be a Christian (seriously ya).. I never even thought of it before, not until the time during the exam period (heh).. Life can be that unpredictable..

I wonder what will I be today without God in my life.. Hmm.. I never looked back seriously.. People who looked back are those who regret their current life.. which I don't.. For that question, I really never thought of it before.. All I know is.. I won't be as happy as I am right now with God in my life.. Not only happy, but inclusive of blessed, gratitude and being optimistic.. My family knows me best.. haha. All the bad things abt me, they all know very well.. =x But they've never once scolded me (that's why I really love my mum cos she can really tolerate me.. even I myself couldn't tolerate myself.. yet she could..) I think her love for us simply overwhelms all our bad things.. And she also didn't object to my faith in God, being a Christian.. despite our dad being a buddhist.. So glad and thankful that there's no persecution in our family..

Well, I believe that our life is all planned by God. Even the most unexpected things can happen.. Though we can't see for real who is Jesus, who is God, whether He really exists.. it's all in our mind, in our hearts.. God sees our hearts.. He knows clearly if it's real or one that's fake..

If you are currently a Christian, God bless you! For we all belong to the same God's family! :)
But if you've yet to come to know God, I'll pray that one day you'll get to know of Him and join in our family!

God bless all!
Love ya :]

Leave on Friday!!

So far everything's cool & smooth.. Praise the Lord!
Today's work was quite rush, but I learnt new things yippee! Oh and yar, there's so much things to learn!!! Wonder will I be able to learn & know everything.. (seems like a really challenging task..) Hmm, and was rather tired the entire day and actually for this entire week for I'm doing self-research on my job scope (so that when the peak period kicks in, I won't be so "sotong" and keep asking my team questions).. hah. Can is can ask, but not very nice to keep disturbing them when they have tonnes of work to do themselves too.. But hahaha, I applied for leave this friday!! hip hip hurray! (no particular reason, but just wan to take leave :] ) Maybe to sleep more.. heh..

Rest while u can.. heh. Take a break when work gets too much.. Jia you jia you!

God bless all!
Love you all, my sisters & brothers :)

Blessed life

Hmm.. been some time since i last blogged..
2 more weeks to my OT.. yep. It's coming.. The dreadful day is finally going to arrive.. A taste of the real working world is just within sight.. Jia you!!

Recently nothing special or extraordinary happened.. Everything was quite peaceful and smooth. I like this kind of life :)

God bless all!

Hmm...

Today my feelings were mixed.. The solemn, abit sad mood is due to work-related matters (which I can't reveal here due to confidentiality issues).. But rest assured it's not about me, it's about my colleague.. but well, que sera, sera..

Oh and yupp, today my work ended on a high note! well, it's again due to work issues.. haha.. Can't reveal much due to same reason, but all thanks to the people! :)

Overall, just want to say that working can be both a pleasure and yet a dampener.. Don't succumb to the cons of working, instead strive on towards the pros!! (it's a reminder to myself now, in the future, and in the future future)..

Live a life worth living! (heh, and of cos, with God! haha)

God bless!

You Lord

Oh yep, recently been trying to find the song "You Lord" online but to no avail.. The song can be found in the album "Paradise Worship: Only by grace".. It's a very new released album! That's why.. haha. The song captured my attention when I was in ACTS bookstore on monday :) Anybody got its MP3? =x

Work has been quite smooth-sailing still, though there can be quite alot of stuff to do.. currently still adapting to this job (but more or less settled down already).. and cham!! the peak period is coming.. October is my peak period.. can't imagine what time will I OT till everyday.. but don't think too much right at the moment, haha.. QUE SERA, SERA (whatever will be, will be)!!

And yar, MY!.. I d/l the song QSS leh! It's in my handphone.. haha. Sing sing next time ar.. haha.

God bless all sis & bro :)

Que sera, sera

Today.. I had a weird starting on my way to work.. not sure why, but suddenly when the train reached city hall, I suddenly feel like puking and got a very strong urge to squat down (The urge to puke is really very strong and I really think I might just vomit anytime). The 1-2minute from City Hall to Raffles Place seemed ages.. I desperately need to sit down.. at least to squat down to curb the puking.. And finally when it reached Raffles Place, I quickly sat down on the bench (still inside the mrt).. When I sat down, my body suddenly perspire and I can feel the sweat.. it's like a sudden gush of sweat just escaped from my body and I'm suddenly perspiring all over.. All it took was like 5min, and thankfully the urge to puke ceased and yar, I went to work of cos..

Surprisingly today I accomplished quite a fair bit of work.. I had infact quite a lot of amendments & tasks to do today, and I cleared almost all before I left home! I was amazed really. I didn't think I would be able to finish by today.. But well, I did.. Haha, happy happy! But the faster work you clear, means the next day there'd be much more new tasks to do.. =X

Oh and I saw a nice quote today in Today's newspaper: "Que Sera, Sera". It means "whatever will be, will be". Cool right?? That's so true.. x)

Cheers.
God bless!

Mum's Birthday Celebration

wohoho, today is my mum's brithday!
I think she's very happy ar.. our entire family went to a steamboat restaurant in Takashimaya to have lunch. Cos most of us are quite full, we ordered ala carte instead of buffet.. And yesh, we got to taste their specialty dishes! There's this egg omelette with noodle, squids & prawns as filling.. woooo, I love this dish alot!!
Though the egg is rather salty, but I still like it! haha.. I like the steamboat too x)

And yippee! I finally bought Nokia E66! At a price of $368 with a 2 yr plan.. Personally I think it's rather expensive.. If only I could wait like 3 more months, the price confirmed will drop.. But.. Well, I'm not too sure if the price is justified with the model.. cos my uncle and my dad's friends who worked in HP shop, said this model has quite a no. of problems, especially all the more since it is a slide phone.. the more u slide it, the more loose it become.. Hais. But I'm still attracted to this particular model somehow.. despite the negative comments about it..
And.. I'll only buy Nokia models.. (IMO, nokia phones are the best)

Mooncake Festival

Yeah!! It's mooncake festival!! Haha. It's a time to enjoy yummy mooncakes, but also a time to drink lots of water! (and I mean LOTS..) Or you'll find yourself with a bad sorethroat the next day..

Just this Friday(12th sep), our YG went to ECP to celebrate mooncake festival! We had a BBQ! Heh. Thanks to all my sis & bro who bought the food & everything & made the celebration a success! Praise the Lord that it didn't rain too! It was our urm.. 1st of such gathering w/o Praise & Worship.. haha. Just being able to chit-chat & look at the moon (hmmm...) is also quite nice.. Though it ended quite late, but it was worth the time x)

Happy Mooncake Festival to all!!

Life + Work

Nowadays I really look forward to going home.. to just slack, relax & enjoy the peaceful & beautiful night.. And when morning arrives.. my mood & spirit drops.. :'X

And it's only the beginning of my working life.. Not to say that my working life is very stressful, but I prefer time spent alone, not rushing & able to do things at my own pace, and of course, to do whatever things I like :)

Take hold of own life ar.. Don't let it take hold of you..
GAMBATTE!

Germs, viruses & bacteria

Urmm.. today I'm in office.. Yepp! Ok la, wasn't that fantastic, but at least I get to chit chat with my same batch of colleagues x) Tomorrow onwards I'll be back at client's place (till next yr..) It can be my 2nd home ler.. I spent almost half a day there everyday..

oh yar, today right, I mean recently like the germs, bacteria & viruses keep coming at me.. Since last fri been having fever, cough & sore throat.. Then tue have blocked nose, and today wed, my taste buds & sense of smell totally gone! (If u put me near a rubbish chute, I'm sure I won't budge, cos I smell nothing) Whatever I eat, there's no taste.. seriously, unable to taste & smell is NOT a happy thing. And suay suay today, my left eye was reddish. I only knew when my colleagues pointed it out to me.. They say should be due to my contact lenses.. And it's very common to people who wore contacts.. I didn't realize it was reddish as there's no pain at all.. Maybe I'll wear spec tmr to work..

But ok still, at least I still survived! Till then...

Exceeding Joy

Nice song!!

Cough Cough Cough

Today was practically a 'chionging' day at work for me.. Though there's no hurry in finishing, somehow I just want to do as much as possible.. And yep, I finished all or most of it just before work ended! *CHEERS* But yar after that, I was totally shagged & drained.. Brain totally shut off.. I'm trying to push myself to be more efficient & productive, though I'm feeling rather sick, coughing & feeling hot all over... But I don't want take MC again cos I just took last Fri..

And then today after work I had to go back office cos there's a meeting for the whole team.. It's a short meeting held by our partner (cool! partner leh..!!) It was rather tense &.. solemn.. but well, throughout the meeting, I was trying super hard not to cough.. cos the room is enclosed & the air is so still that even a gulp of your saliva can be heard.. And I don't know why, my throat itch so much during the meeting that I kept on coughing.. And for goodness, I can't seem to stop the itchiness.. When I tried to control & resist coughing out, my whole face become so hot, my eyes become teary with water (I'm not crying), and the worst is.. the itch at my throat became even more itchy.. the 30min in the room was pure torture(seriously). In the end, I did really cough out a few times (ok, maybe alot of times), and non-stop coughing.. I think is the enclosed area made my throat itch so much.. I feel so awkward & pai sei throughout the meeting.. Such a disobedient throat..

But good thing is tmr I'll be in office for 1 day.. (Finally!) I missed my colleagues.. Must spend time wisely tmr with them! :)

Lifehouse's Everything Drama

Somehow weirdly, just only, my friend who studied Catholic, sent me this youtube link.. I saw this youtube video before.. while I was still a v.new believer, Huimin sent me this link too.. That time it didn't make any sense, so I asked her to explain what the video meant.. After seeing it a 2nd time, it revealed in me how great is our God, how persistant He is in not giving us up to the evil, how protective He is over us...



Hope this video brought back renewed vision to those who needed it..

One Thing (Hillsong) video

I really totally enjoyed listening to this song.. The lyrics are simple, yet very meaningful & true.. Hope u guys will enjoy this song too..

PS: Currently the default song is also 'One Thing'.. so if you want to watch the video, pls pause the song in the right sidebar and play the video :)



One Thing (Hillsong)Lyrics

One thing I desire
One thing I seek
To gaze upon Your beauty
And Your majesty

God of my salvation
Lifter of my head
Teach me how to live oh Lord
In Your righteousness

So I pray to You
So I pray to You

Lord Your name
Is higher than the heavens
Lord Your name
Is higher than all created things
Higher than hope
Higher than dreams
The name of the Lord

In the day of trouble
You cover me
In the secret place of refuge
Lord I will sing

I will seek Your face
Call upon Your name Jesus
All I want is You
Jesus

Euthanasia?

Today.. I woke up at 11am.. usually 1st thing in the morning I would flip through the newspapers to see if got any major news.. Today what caught my attention was about a lady who predicted her death to be on 11 Feb 2008 @ 6.15pm.. I was thinking "How could a person predict the day & time of her death"? And it dawned upon me.. possible... Euthanasia... The lady had secondary cancer in her lungs.

Before today, the closest I got to read & understand more about Euthanasia was in JC, when there's a GP essay on Euthanasia.. Today's reading brought me back to the topic... As I read through how the lady lived her life for the last few days, how she arranged her funeral to be (yes), and how her family members coped with her.. It felt so real.. that life is really so vulnerable.. The thing that made me ponder was her mindset.. the reason that she chose euthanasia over living her last few months was that she did not want people saying, 'How sad, that beautiful hair all gone.'.. She feared the condition of worsening and losing control of it..

It brought back to me, that God want everybody to live.. God gave life to every single creation.. He created all things on Earth.. Is it right in his eyes to end a life earlier, or on voluntary reason.. even though the decision came from the victim himself/herself... I really couldn't figure out.. Will I have to come to such a decision in future? And if so, will I choose the same route as this lady here.. I really don't know...

PS: If u want to read more about it, it's in "The Sunday Times, 7 Sept, Pg 29"...

Keep the Faith going

Today's service was powerful.. The pastor who spoke today is in-charge of the Philippino group.. (I forgot his name.. ) His sharing today was.. amazing.. He spoke of many things abt God that illustrates how God is so real and how powerful & wonderful he is... Some eg:

1) Give yourself fully to God, and he'll help to manage your life

+ I hope to achieve this in time to come.. Though it might take some time, more commitment & settling of priorities, I believe that God is everything that we live for.. I really need to strengthen my faith in him in order to obey & submit to him completely.. this is something which I'm currently still struggling & trying hard to follow..

2) If God is for you, who can be against you?

+ I need more time to think this through...

3) Live a life that truly matters to God

+ To live a life that is holy & worthy of his praise when the judgement day comes.. My current life is not perfect.. and it's full of flaws... Definitely need to pray & seek more revelation in this aspect...

God bless.
U are so real..

Personality Test!!

Haha, today I woke up feeling refreshed, so trying my luck to see if I can find the online version of the personality test of Sanguine/Choleric/Phlegmatic & Melancholy.. Yepp, and I found 1 website!! (how true is it I'm not sure, but I won't mind giving it a try) :)

Here's the link:
http://www.oneishy.com/personality/personality_test.php

And so... tadaaa... after doing the test, it said I'm a Phlegmatic (33%) & Melancholy (30%) type of person. Whereas Sanguine (25%) & Choleric (13%).. The weird thing is it doesn't add up to 100%.. but 101%.. Here's the test results:

Phlegmatic's Strengths
Emotions
- Low-key personality
- Easygoing and relaxed
- Calm, cool and collected
- Patient well balanced
- Consistent life
- Quiet but witty (depends..)
- Sympathetic and kind
- Keeps emotions hidden
- Happily reconciled to life
- All-purpose person (hmm?)

As a Friend
- Easy to get along with
- Pleasant and enjoyable
- Inoffensive
- Good listener
- Dry sense of humor (hmm?)
- Enjoys watching people
- Has many friends
- Has compassion and concern

At Work
- Competent and steady
- Peaceful and agreeable
- Has administrative ability
- Mediates problems
- Avoids conflicts
- Good under pressure
- Finds the easy way (haha)

Melancholy's Strengths
Emotions
- Deep and thoughtfully
- Analytical
- Serious and purposeful
- Genius prone (i doubt so..)
- Talented and creative (err.. don't think so..)
- Artistic or musical (definitely not..)
- Philosophical and poetic (gosh.. not at all..)
- appreciative of beauty (maybe...)
- Sensitive to others
- Self-sacrificing (depends...)
- Conscientious
- Idealistic

As a Friend
- Makes friends cautiously
- Content to stay in background
- Avoids causing attention
- Faithful and devoted
- Will listen to complaints
- Can solve other's problems
- Deep concern for other people
- Moved to tears with compassion (sometimes..)
- Seeks ideal mate

At Work
- Schedule oriented
- Perfectionist, high standards
- Detail conscious
- Persistent and thorough
- Orderly and organized
- Neat and tidy
- Economical
- Sees the problems
- Finds creative solutions
- Needs to finish what he starts
- Likes charts, graphs, figures, lists

Hahax. Though there's some parts which I find doubtful, it's afterall a generalization test! Can't be 100% accurate! And er hem, there's weaknesses too.. but the list will be really long.. so I'll just post the strengths here.. :) haha.. Go & have a go at it!

PS: Cheers to anyone who have the same personality type as me! x) hahaha

Self-made mooncakes

woahh.. today suddenly my mum make mooncakes..

(her favorite hobby is to attend cooking classes.. )

that's like totally opposite of me.. I can't cook/bake for goodness..

My uncle helps out too.. only me didn't... I'm only interested in taking photos.. :'X

:)

God, we need your help

Today I took MC from work, cos I woke up with a huge headache & feeling v.dizzy... When I stood up, my brain is like.. v.tight & my eye vision kind of blurred.. need a few sec to clear the blurness & see straight.. Maybe cos not enough sleep or it's an indicator or something... so I went to see a doctor @ 9am, and doctor said I've slight fever & prescribed some medicine "Paracetamol" for fever and "Dimenhydrinate" for giddyness... But when I reached home, I didn't take the medicine & fell back onto bed & slp... till now... maybe I'll take it soon..

While I was waiting at the clinic for my turn to see the doctor, I received a SMS from my sis (MM).. it was a msg that made my heart stop beating for a few sec.. It was a SMS abt our bro, whose bro-in-law is now in a coma due to a clot in the brain.. All I could think of was how's the condition of his bro-in-law, how's my bro coping with it, is everything alright etc etc.. so many questions flood my mind.. but it wouldn't be nice if I keep asking abt the situation for he must be traumatised by the sudden news and he also needs time for himself to pray & settle his mind..

Now is the time to really pray & seek God for his help.. prayer & fasting (like what MM said), we should do more of P & F, use the time wisely to pray to God, to talk to Him so that He'll reveal His power and protect the bro-in-law.. and also that everyone close to Him will be able to take the news.. I know God is there, and He has heard our prayers.. No prayers will be left unanswered.. So let's continue to pray for the bro-in-law & not giving up any hope..

God, pls pls protect the bro-in-law & wake him up from the coma..

God bless.
Amen.

Stunning picures of the Cross

Was surfing the internet.. . and saw some very stunning christian-related pictures..

So thought of posting them here...

v.cool & nice right?